Poetry Lovers / 재미 시인 윤화진 경제학 박사
I Just Want To Be Perfect.
Just one word
I kept telling myself
Pen - cancelling words, phrases and sentences
With a red line as thin as thread.
The more I looked at them
The more I try to convince myself
This isn't good 👍
Painful flashback of negative comments
Dance around my face.
Finally,
I wrote the last word
"Perfect"
My lips curved in smile 😁
Convinced that this will earn
Likes
Visibility
Praises in the comments box
But... my fingers 🤞 lingered on the send button 🔘
What if?
Just what If?
Question mark hanging around my head
Two lines stretched from my cheek
To the bridge of my nose 👃
Not from ageing
But... tiredness 😩
Fustration
Doubt.
I buried my face
In my ink stained palm
I wished I were
Chimamanda Adichie
William Shakespeare
Then maybe I will be free from the negative comments.
Until
I sat down 👇
My eyes 👁️ 👀 locked 🔒 on my vision board
I realized
That humans will always find something to fault
And trying to be perfect
Will be a dark circle 🌑 with no end.
This poem is for every person who spend hours on the chair, legs 🦵 tucked under the table, drafting post only for it to be slammed back to your face with hate words and negative comments.
This is for that one, who has refuse to post any content because you feel your content are not up to standard.
This is for that person, who is struggling with visibility.
I am here to tell you
Your creative works are valid
Your content are worthy
Develop yourself instead of nodding to the whispers of doubt and hate speech.
Appreciate yourself
Celebrate 🥳 🥂 your strength
Work on your weakness
And Importantly
Be yourself.